kissing 2016 goodbye! |
I am definitely glad to see 2016 go. It was one of the hardest years I have faced
in my life, but looking back I see how much I have grown and how strong I am as
a person. I couldn’t have done it
alone and I realized how truly blessed I am to have the support system that I do. I owe most of my sanity to my friends and family. They sat with me while I cried and laughed (sometimes in public), they helped me out when money got tight, they recommended me for jobs, and they encouraged me when I felt like a failure. I don’t think that there is anything worse than giving something all you had only to be told you weren’t good enough. I really struggled with this for several months until I realized I wasn’t being told I wasn’t good enough. I was being told I wasn’t a good fit, and you know what I wasn’t! And it defiantly wasn’t a good fit for me.
alone and I realized how truly blessed I am to have the support system that I do. I owe most of my sanity to my friends and family. They sat with me while I cried and laughed (sometimes in public), they helped me out when money got tight, they recommended me for jobs, and they encouraged me when I felt like a failure. I don’t think that there is anything worse than giving something all you had only to be told you weren’t good enough. I really struggled with this for several months until I realized I wasn’t being told I wasn’t good enough. I was being told I wasn’t a good fit, and you know what I wasn’t! And it defiantly wasn’t a good fit for me.
One of the best people in my life... Plus she let me cry with her at a restaurant where the guy felt so bad for me he gave me my drink free! |
Once I let that go and started to move on in my life I
started to see change. I noticed that I
was happier and felt more fulfilled in what I was doing. Without taking a risk and failing I don’t
think I would have grown the way I have.
I discovered that I have an untapped skill set that I never would have
used without all the changes I faced.
I am super excited to see what 2017 holds for me. I am a few months in at my new job and I can
honestly say my work fulfills and challenges me daily. I am able to be creative and also work with
one of my good friends.
If I have any advice or encouraging words it would be to
take that leap of faith but truly understand all the risks and rewards of doing
so. The only thing I regret about 2016
is not listening to my inner voice. I
had doubts on a few things and really should have listened, instead I was
blinded by the overpromised rewards. But
hey, sometimes you have to learn the hard way and now I know that if I ever get
into that situation again I will have the tools to prevent that situation from
happening.
So thank you to all my family, my friends, and all my
readers. It means the world to have your
support as I navigate life. But most
importantly I want to thank Ryan, without you by my side this year I would not
have made it. I love you to the moon and
back and you have been my rock this year!
I didn’t know it was possible to love you even more than I already do
but I know that no matter what we would do anything for each other. I love you.
So happy new year, lets cheers to great things for our
futures!
Love,
Amelia B.
PS NY resolution- post more consistently!! Whoohoo!
And go to the gym… we will see which actually happens!
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